its time

it has t0 start s0mewhere

it has t0 start s0metime

what better place than here

what better time than n0w

>rageagainstthemachine

from success to failure

i started my education

in the best manner it can be

awarded with a lot of medals,

trophies and certificates during early schooling

graduated as a class valedictorian

in my elementary years

my high school life

is not that to be proud of

in terms of awards that had won

but i can still say im on the top

being a part of a section

that is considered as the cream of the crop

in short,

im a consistent section one student

from freshmen to senior year

in college,

i went to a university that somehow

can provide quality but inexpensive education

the pioneer here in the philippines

of the course i’ve chosen

i don’t believe in the words

cumlaude,

suma cumlaude,

magna cumlaude

or even deans lister.

what’s important for me

is to pass every subject i take

a passing grade is already enough for me

anyway i don’t consider a college life

without a single failing grade

that’s why i have two

and one more thing

a college education

without a single failing grade

is a life that’s not well lived (just my opinion)

but where am i now?

im a degree holder

im a professional

i already worked

in different well known organizations

but am i successful?

am i content?

did i achieve something to be proud of?

the answer????? a big big NO, NO,…..

co’z im still a failure up to now.,.,.,.

im just asking

i feel down and blue

i wanted to be blown by the air

and forever be lost in this earth

i dont have any motivation at all

goal to strive at

and probably the reason to live by

its not funny anymore

i dont have any achievement

nothing to be proud of

and end up always the loser

im not always negative

but what can i do?

there's nothing positive that happens to me

what's just left of me

are those people who loves me

but is that already enough to continue life

do you have a purpose for my living?

did i already reach what you intended for me?

did i already serve my purpose here on earth?

is that already it?

im so sorry but IM JUST ASKING.,

Tanggap ko na?

Tanggap ko na?

hindi lahat ng nais ng isang tao ay natutupad

kumbaga sadyang may mga pangarap na hanggang pangarap na lang talaga

at hindi kailanman pwedeng magkatotoo

mga bagay na alam mong magpapasaya talaga sayo

subalit marami kang kailangang isakripisyo

sakripisyo na kaya mo sanang magawa

kung alam mong may magiging resulta

ngunit hindi pwedeng basta basta ka na lang lumarga

gayong alam mong suntok sa buwan ang pangarap mo

pero bakit ganun? sa ibang tao hindi mahalaga ang bagay na ito

pero bakit sa akin sobrang halaga nito

kailangan ko ba talagang matutunan tanggapin

na may mga pangarap na hindi natutupad?

na may mga prutas na nasa pinakatuktok ng puno na hindi kayang mapitas?

o ipagpatuloy lang ang pangangarap,

at magpursige para maabot ang bungang kahoy na pinapangarap.